YOU ARE ENOUGH
I use that term a lot, it’s on my website, but it means a lot to me.. growing up your are always told “the right way to think”. We become so programmed to follow others fears and traumas. We have to listen and never think for ourselves. Well, I was always taught I was not good enough. I wasn’t a good enough student, daughter, baseball player, girlfriend.. the list goes on.
Thinking I was not enough made me into a people pleasure.. I over extended myself to the point of exhaustion. People always came to me, because they knew Michele would do it. I had no boundaries and the word no was not an option for me.. It would leaving me feeling guilty, until I just gave in and said yes.
It took me years and I mean YEARS and a lot of hard work, really looking at myself and who I wanted to be to realize, that way of thinking was just not serving me. It was leaving me drained and I wasn’t able to show up for me in any way. I still have issues with that sometimes, I am, of course, a work in progress. I have a phrase I say to myself every day.. I am enough, I love you! i look at myself every morning and repeat those words to myself as I stare into my eyes…I read that in a book that changed my life, You can heal your life by Louise Hay. Louise taught me to do that. She is famous for her "mirror work". I also wrote a letter to myself, telling myself everything that I wished people would have said to me growing up. I tell myself I am a beautiful soul, inside and out, I am enough. I read it back to myself every single day, whether I feel like it or not… I have also learned the word no, and I don’t feel bad using it.. Well….I do..sometimes still struggle, especially with Family, but I kindly remind myself, I am a work in progress and not to be too hard on myself. I heard once, It's not selfish to say no, it’s selfless. For me, if it’s not a hell yes...then it's a definite no. I do that with a lot of things in my life these days. That helps me to find out what I truly love to do and who I really want to be. See...I'm the artist in my painting.
Some people have left my life because of my new boundaries, but ya know what, that’s ok… when you let go of what does not serve you, you make room for better things, more loving people, who respect you for who you are and your boundaries..